Wednesday, December 08, 2004

like the song goes....

Life is shit, life is shit, the world is shit, the world is shit.... Ahh gotta love the dead milkmen....

That pretty much sums up my day!

PAINFUL hands.... (did I say painful) tight and stiff too.
Bladder showing her signs too as well as good ol aunt flo... which is weird as I take 100% birth control all the time.... guess she wants to join in the the tourture me day too!

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

Day 3 sucks!

I felt all achy all day long. My rigth side of my head/eye socket hurt really bad off and on. My bladder has become like pissing razor blades again (lucky me) My hands hurt and so does my heart.

I have never in my life been more madder at my DH than I have ever been.... its to long of a story but his timelyness of his wanted to go to a counsler is NOT a good time for me.... I can only image what he will do when I get DX with cancer one day........ with my luck its sure to happen.... oh boy... Life sucks to be me.

Mental note: Must play lotto tomorrow... surely I can't have that much bad luck in my life.

Morning day 3

Still waiting to get the courage up to take my first dose of doxy. Last night sucked. I was all fucked up in my head. Pissed at life and my DH. Life is unfair and I have been the winner of that award for quite some time now. But I don't expect a pitty party on me.

I slept on the couch, then on the floor with an airmattress in the living room. Zane woke up to find me sleeping on the airmattress and layed down with me. He quietly watched cartoons while I slept until 1015am.

My chest hurts this morning and I am already weak feeling.

Monday, December 06, 2004

Day 2 on Doxy

After 16 months of pure living hell I am finally dianogised with Lyme Disease.

I started Doxycycline 400mg yesterday and today I feel very sick to my tummy and very foggy in the head. My bladder is acting up a bit as well as my hand pain. It sucks to be me again...